You know that time of day, when your brain wonders to whatever topic it wants? It could be anything from Six Degrees of Kevin Bacon and wonder if that Asian actor in the new Spring Commercial is the same guy who played Adam in the Might Morphin Power Rangers Movie to a shame spiral of thoughts that lead one to dark emotional places. This could happen while one is at work, driving in the car, or trying to go to sleep.
It's whatever time of day you have where your brain is unfocused and allowed to frolic freely in the mine field of your memories. For me this happens most frequently when I am driving (usually home from work) or when my head hits my pillow. It will catch on a thought and then chase after it like a ravenous beast. Due to recent life events, it's usually about how different things are this year as opposed to last year. Or what could have happened differently from how life is right now. Or reliving the feeling of those revelations. Or wondering if there's ever something in his current life that causes him to think of me and regret his choices. Not just because of the pain he caused but because of me. Driving home usually has me wondering what I would say if he ever came back and wanted a second chance. Which is really very silly.
I have found that the confusing nature of Debits and Credits in accounting has given me an alternative. Doing well in this Principles of Accounting Class is important to me and the plans I am making for my future. Most of it is pretty easy to grasp since I can relate it to work I am currently doing, but most of it doesn't come second nature and I have to really work my way through a problem. So in these times, where my mind is sabotaging my recovery, I have started thinking about the Accounting Equation and which parts have increases in debits and which have increases in credits. It gives me focus on something positive and helps to reinforce the knowledge I am gaining. Win/Win.
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